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summer anthems
your closed mouth smile
our thighs touching in the back seat
a forbidden forest
your humble sadness
the sun beating hard on my bronzing back
subtle advances
submerging in yellows
the rain on the window and the roof
stranger’s bedrooms
your steady breathing
the truths i can’t tell myself

your face, my hands
how beautiful that crooked stance
i can still taste the salty skin on my mouth

and our worn spirits, i still feel them
crowding in that empty house,
we dreamt up but couldn’t fill with anything now

so many nights crying out in our sleep
you can’t get your arms wrapped around me
we never thought
that we’d ever have to wander out so far

 

and those are things we wish we would have realized
when we were all kids and all the knowing was learning how
and all the being was finding out
when all the heartache was building boundaries
and all the sunshine in life would come and go so quickly
as we created entire landscapes and oceans in spite of one hour, tiny fleeting sparks of inspiration
and how we tore them down without ever thinking
as our bodies were pulled in and under the waves or laid quietly in the prairie grasses
we didn’t know it then but we know now
we were all kids building empires and pyramids in our own backyards, in the backs of cars and in basements
when there existed no wrongs, no rights, no God
just experiences
the whole world was ours to build and destroy

and its warm and its beating and breathing and i smother it in spite of you 

and its yellow and delicate and spins in dim light, comes out at night when the times right

and its young and fleeting and it means everything and nothing all at once

movements bound only for memory, for experience, 

i feel my teeth slipping from my curtain lips but back in, not tonight, not again.
what if i’ve been trying so hard to be right, to be lily white in the eyes of god
a god that’s fair - oh how he frowns on needless death but my bloodless hands, my lieless tongue
what if i feel like a part of me doesn’t exist only because you condemn it